It’s funny how holiday season brings to the surface dormant feelings and empowers them with such sheer force. We get more emotional and nostalgic, aware of how vulnerable we are and how unforgiving time is. The emotions might be over the top, but some realities remain the same. For some of us, this is the moment we face upfront those feelings that were swept under the rug for so long. All that time we have had the tv running— we were binge watching junk to get numb.

Should I actually blame the holidays for all the social contracts that we are expected to comply to? On some level it just feels sickening to being exposed to all that Christmassy spirit, while being constantly asked to be thankful and gay, when all you really want is to get away from all the glittering buzz. Nobody is really that happy. That doesn’t mean you are a total Grinch. Maybe you are just trying to connect with your own raw spirit.